Archive for January, 2012

I’m presently waiting for some news.  I don’t wait well.  I don’t wait patiently.  I wrap my brain around possibilities and what-if’s and never let go.  I wonder.  I fret.  I plan for things not yet realized.  It’s my nature to be curious and I’m always trying to work things out in my head, whether I have the facts or not.  There are no guarantees, of course.  It could be bad news, just as easily as good news, but I tend to believe that good outweighs bad.  I tend to look forward to good news instead of preparing myself for bad news.  I suppose that’s because I’ve received more good news than bad.  The plan is to hear back next week, if all goes well.  I can wait a week.  I can wait two, if necessary.  But, that doesn’t mean that I’ll be waiting patiently, careful not to get my hopes up.  I don’t know which is better.  To prepare myself for bad news or to expect good news.  I find, when it’s something I really want, I tend to believe it will work out.  And, if I’ve learned anything in my time on this planet, it’s that everything happens for a reason.  Each and every time I’ve been disappointed by bad news, it has eventually worked out for the best.  There’s always something just around the corner that makes me glad to be available, which I wouldn’t have been, had the news been good.  So, I wait and I wonder.  Will the news be good?  Or, will I be let down easily (“it’s good, but not for us”) so that I will be available when the next better thing comes along down the pike?

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